January 13

January 13, 2014

I hope everyone is doing well. I am trying to send my blog every week to Mario Vredenburg of the New York State prisoner assistance center so he can update the website. Since last week, I have done a radio interview with Mona Rivera of 1010WINS and Kirstin Cole from WPIX11 New York City station travel to see me as well. Both of these women sat through my trial with my family and me along with so many of my friends and supporters.

I am thankful for them. They say that God put certain people in your life for specific reasons and I am so lucky to have so many of these special people. People that believe in me and want the best for me. I have even met some new people since being incarcerated that have suffered difficult lives and circumstances but still have kind words to share.

God is good. I can never think all of you for support but I can tell you that you are and always will be in my prayers.

Barbara

January 10

January 7, 2014

Hello everyone, another week has gone by. Today is 0° with the wind chill between -25° to -40° so there are not many outside activities, needless to say. Since I surrendered to Riker Island on June 21, 2012 more than six months have passed.  I think back on those six months so often and realize all that I have missed. My niece’s sweet 16, my aunt’s 75^th birthday, my dad’s birthday on August 17, my mom’s birthday on September 13, a cousin’s wedding, Thanksgiving, my son’s birthday on December 19, a baby shower for my daughter, Christmas eve and Christmas day, New Year’s Eve, and of course, New Year’s Day. More than 182 days that I can never get back.

I suffered for 18 years in an abusive marriage and then waited more than 3 ½ years for trial and I am still suffering almost 6 years after this tragedy I feel that this is never going to end. But then I think of all the good. Two great children with wonderful spouses, a great family support system and friends I cannot thank you enough.

I have my health and I no longer lead to look over my shoulder or cringe waiting for the next attack by a man that I thought love me. Life is okay and God is good.

Barbara

12/30/13

12/30/13

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and a happy new year. Mine was blessed but also very sad. My daughter and son-in-law came to visit from California, which made it a very special. My son and daughter-in-law came a few days after which was also very special and it made me very happy to have two visits in one week. I have been very lucky to have regular visitors. My children, my parents, my sister, brother-in-law, and many other family members and friends have done their best.

Nevertheless, being so far away from home it is very expensive and time-consuming for visits for everyone. I know that everyone wishes that they could come more often and so do I. It is always so sad when visitors leave. It is hard to be up here so far away from everyone all alone.

I have spoken to many women incarcerated with me since I have been here at Albion on who have been charged with similar offenses or even far worse offenses and they are routinely released far quicker than I will be. Many women who are repeat felons who committed crimes worse than mine, have received lesser sentences. This simply does not make any sense to me.

It is disheartening to think that my judge imposed a five-year sentence with 2 ½ years of post-release supervision upon me, a first-time offender, who was found to be justified a jury trial for her actions, simply so the judge could make a point to the public. The public is not serving my sentence.

I am fully aware though that things could be far worse and I continue to pray for the countless others who are in abusive domestic violence relationships. I pray that they have the courage and strength to know that they deserve better and to seek help before it is too late.

I hope that all your dreams come true in 2014 and I would like to wish a happy new year to everyone who has supported me for all of these years.

Barbara

12/18/13

I am sitting in my dorm room at Albion Correctional Facility which consists of 12 beds. Each with one large locker and one small locker. The dorm has a small bathroom and it reminds me of the play ‘Annie.’ In addition to dorm area, there are seven single rooms, a recreation area with a television, a small kitchen with pots and a hot plate, and shower room with four stalls, a bathroom, and a laundry room.

Most of the time that I am in my housing unit; I spent the time in my bed reading writing and praying. During the weekdays, I have class in the mornings called “Moving On.” And in the afternoons I am in a women’s trauma program.

I also get to go to classes at night to become a facilitator and I go to a program called Sisters Healing Old Wounds. On Tuesday evenings. I should also be stored in college at night soon in January.

So as you can see, I am remaining busy with this is the hard part. Tomorrow is my sons 24^th birthday and I have never missed one of his birth is not texting him calling him or release making him dinner. I will never be able to get back his 25^th birthday. These things were taken from me.

I also lost Thanksgiving this year and Christmas next week. I will not be with my children, children’s in-laws, parents, siblings family, or friends. And my first grandchild is due in February. I want to be there with my daughter to be there for her so much and I just cannot. I am missing a lot and I cry very often but I pray even more and asked God for the courage and strength to continue on this journey.

I would of course like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a happy new year. I also especially want to thank everyone that is helping and supporting me by bringing as much attention as possible to my case so that I may obtain some relief from the Governor so that I don't have to sit here for another miserable holiday. 

Your friend,

Barbara

Thank You All!!

I would like to thank everyone for supporting me all of these years. As you can see, I am now applying for Executive Clemency so that my sentence may be reduced to make me immediately eligible for parole release. I will be receiving mail every day from the staff at the NYS Prisoner Assistance Center as they will print my e-mails and messages of support. I will respond here whenever I can. You can always write me directly at 

Barbara Sheehan

13G0667

Albion CF

3595 State School Road

Albion, NY 14411-9399

MIchael Dowd is working very hard on my appeals and this is another opportunity to get me home, where I belong, to my family and my community. I miss you all and cannot thank all of you enough for believing in me.  

Humbly Yours, Barbara Sheehan